Proudly, my baby took first place in his weight class "again" this week. I was sitting there thinking about making a video...Something like...10 tips to help you and your kids cope with losing in sports and life. It was going to be comedic and very funny. Really, it was. Then, walking to my car, I remembered two conversations I had yesterday. One was to a young lady about the mistakes you'll make when beginning any job. I was able to name and own some that were mine, from my start in the music industry. The second was to a young man who was marveling over what he saw as "our wins". I didn't want to kill the moment, but standing tall, with a smile I said to him: for every win that you see, I wish you knew how many more no's and losses were had.
Nobody posts the bad pictures on social media nor creates press releases for the projects that didn't work. AND just like that...my would be laughs have turned into serious thankfulness. For: every win, every loss, every yes, for every single no, for all the folks who have been part of my successes and for those that I know still want to see me fail....for the good moments, and the bad, for the things that came easy and the ones that required extra work...for the seasons that there was very little, but it was still enough....and for the times that there was more than I needed...for the day that teacher said I never would do, but He said you will be...for the days I feel guilty and think my son's can't know how much I love them, to what feels like every single time I feel I am thinking of them, they text me how much they love me...for every broken place, that is now healed, for the stuff that I used to cry over, that I now laugh at, for dreaming of a love that I thought I would only imagine, to realizing that I love me today, even more than that dream. I could go on and on adding even more, but I won't.
I am simply thankful...more than you will ever know...for everything...for every piece, for every small and big thing...for all of my journey....even the part that started this morning and got me here, to where I am right now...in this season, it has been dreary, but today the sun is shining...I took about 3 bad pics, in order to get this one. I won't post my bad ones either...This good one, gives me a chance to add grace to the end of this list...because at the end is where it usually falls, right after the periods, literally ( . ) of all that you say & do...so for all the times I go left, that He covers and makes right...for all the things I do wrong and get another chance to correct, for even when I admit, that I don't deserve it, and insult Him...because I feel inadequate, alone, or my thoughts some times are ugly....God still says...you are enough...I am with you always and no matter what...Beautiful girl, it's yours...
I know I said this pic was good. It's not the best one I've seen in life nor of me....but that's where grace plus my faith enters the scene... I know that better will be done. I'll take new pics then, in hopes of getting that one. So for now, I'll just tell you about the bad one, and post the good ones, until the best days and those pictures come.